im not even mad. you seriously hurt my feelings eric. and your amused by this. are my feelings a joke to you? you know I could give a fuck if you flirt but to do it to fuck with me is sick. && my double standards?? no they are your double standards. im really in shock.

dilligaf? bc i do

eric

i dont want to give on us.

i love you. so much. i cant even imagine you not being in my life.

i wish i could make you believe 100% that i am not doing anything wrong.

there's just you babe; i Guarantee it.

yes i cheated on bryan with you but i didnt know i was going to fall in love with you. neither did you. i couldnt resist you anymore & i had to have it. i didnt know i would catch feelings like this. i didnt plan any of this. i would have done it all different if i could go back because i hate the way you think of me. i know you wish things would have gone down diff right?

i love you E

you are the shit

but im the shit even more because i got you

♥amanda+eric♥

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you still blow my mind. I just dont get why guys have double standards?! I mean grow the fuck up already. jealously....so over it. If we are going to be together than lets do it if not fuck this dumb shit and move on. give me your heart, lets make this real or forget about it. you say I have your heart...achoo. act like it. how can you get on my case for doing something your also doing yourself? you do you baby. if that involves me...GREAT and if not that is cool too. Im not doing anything wrong, nothing to hide. trust is a fucked up thing and i know we fucked ourselves from the beginning but if this is ever going to work something has got to give. we cant get through one day without bitchin at each other over some dumb shit



&& for the record I LOST SIGNAL just now i was in the middle of typing this shit thats why i didnt call right back! some dumb shit right there...



i wanna give up so bad bc i feel like we are getting no where! for every nice civil convo we have there are 5 fucked up ones to match it. i knew this wasnt going to be easy and i told you that. I knew shit would be like this sooner or later but i was willing to fight for it...now i feel i am fighting against you.



im your girl, your in love with me, you would kill for me...blah eric fukin blahs
if all thats true what is the deal?



i love you

please already...

LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD with me;

promise it'll be soo fun

well...

I hate that I can't go through with breaking up with you...almost as much as I hate you. I really do; hate that I love you that is...
I just feel at some point something has got to give. At this point I'm ready to give in. I am so over having the same converations every week. Doesn't it drive you crazy? One minute I want to say fuck it because it shouldn't be this hard but in another I dont want to give up so soon. I dont want to be the crazy girlfriend always bitching over dumb shit because thats so not me, but Im def not gonna sit here and keep my mouth shut when your not keeping up your end up. I think I am a pretty awesome girl in general...fuck that I kno I am...I also kno that I am a great girlfriend. you need to wise up before its too late. There is so much more I could say but I just dont see the point. I love you eric....still waiting for you to join me in the real world :D