im not even mad. you seriously hurt my feelings eric. and your amused by this. are my feelings a joke to you? you know I could give a fuck if you flirt but to do it to fuck with me is sick. && my double standards?? no they are your double standards. im really in shock.

dilligaf? bc i do

eric

i dont want to give on us.

i love you. so much. i cant even imagine you not being in my life.

i wish i could make you believe 100% that i am not doing anything wrong.

there's just you babe; i Guarantee it.

yes i cheated on bryan with you but i didnt know i was going to fall in love with you. neither did you. i couldnt resist you anymore & i had to have it. i didnt know i would catch feelings like this. i didnt plan any of this. i would have done it all different if i could go back because i hate the way you think of me. i know you wish things would have gone down diff right?

i love you E

you are the shit

but im the shit even more because i got you

♥amanda+eric♥

♥ 08-08→

you still blow my mind. I just dont get why guys have double standards?! I mean grow the fuck up already. jealously....so over it. If we are going to be together than lets do it if not fuck this dumb shit and move on. give me your heart, lets make this real or forget about it. you say I have your heart...achoo. act like it. how can you get on my case for doing something your also doing yourself? you do you baby. if that involves me...GREAT and if not that is cool too. Im not doing anything wrong, nothing to hide. trust is a fucked up thing and i know we fucked ourselves from the beginning but if this is ever going to work something has got to give. we cant get through one day without bitchin at each other over some dumb shit



&& for the record I LOST SIGNAL just now i was in the middle of typing this shit thats why i didnt call right back! some dumb shit right there...



i wanna give up so bad bc i feel like we are getting no where! for every nice civil convo we have there are 5 fucked up ones to match it. i knew this wasnt going to be easy and i told you that. I knew shit would be like this sooner or later but i was willing to fight for it...now i feel i am fighting against you.



im your girl, your in love with me, you would kill for me...blah eric fukin blahs
if all thats true what is the deal?



i love you

please already...

LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD with me;

promise it'll be soo fun

well...

I hate that I can't go through with breaking up with you...almost as much as I hate you. I really do; hate that I love you that is...
I just feel at some point something has got to give. At this point I'm ready to give in. I am so over having the same converations every week. Doesn't it drive you crazy? One minute I want to say fuck it because it shouldn't be this hard but in another I dont want to give up so soon. I dont want to be the crazy girlfriend always bitching over dumb shit because thats so not me, but Im def not gonna sit here and keep my mouth shut when your not keeping up your end up. I think I am a pretty awesome girl in general...fuck that I kno I am...I also kno that I am a great girlfriend. you need to wise up before its too late. There is so much more I could say but I just dont see the point. I love you eric....still waiting for you to join me in the real world :D

i miss you so much

°♥→I'm telling the world you piss me off♥

yes you piss me off & make me mad...so mad I could scream & punch you right in the mouth! What is a relationship without disagreement? It doesn't exsist. We are going to have our tisks here & there but it will only make us stronger in the end. I won't pretend that we have this perfect relationship because we sure as hell don't. Jaime says this about her & Chris..."the perfect couple just not in the perfect situation." I think that applies to us. It'll all get better in time. I don't know if I'll ever stop saying it but we have something special. I can't stay mad at you.
"I'm sorry I'm an asshole."
"Like you didn't know I was cold?"
so brutally honest...I love it! && you know I'm a bitch. perfect.
I gotta get ready for work but I had to get that out first.
I love you snaric... I do. bunches.

°♥→Sailing

Well it's not far down to paradise

At least it's not for me

And if the wind is right you can sail away

And find tranquility

Oh, the canvas can do miracles

Just you wait and see Baby believe me,

oh It's not far to Never Never Land No reason to pretend

And if the wind is right you can find the joy Of innocence again

Oh, the canvas can do miracles Just you wait and see

Baby believe me, oh Sailing takes me away To where

I've always heard it could be I heard it could be

Just a dream and a wind to carry me Soon I will be free,

yeah Fantasy, it gets the best of me When I'm sailing, sailing

All the world in a reverie

Every word is a symphony Won't you believe me,

oh Sailing takes me away

To where I've always heard it could be (Takes me away to where I want to be)

I heard it could be Just a dream and a wind to carry me

Soon I will be free Well it's not far back to sanity

At least it's not for me And if the wind is right you can sail away

And find serenity Oh, the canvas can do miracles

Just you wait and see Baby believe me, oh Sailing takes me away

To where I've always heard it could be I heard it could be

Just a dream and a wind to carry me Soon I will be free, free Sailing takes me away

To where I've always heard it could be I heard it could be

Just a dream and a wind to carry me Soon I will be free, yeah

You are my one && only

you sissy lala you...
ok so, I don't even know where to begin.
ok read my e-mails...go through my shit...its great. I have NOTHING to hide. NOTHING! who's Matt? NOBODY! I do totally understand why you would do that. I'm just going to put it out there. We have a problem with trust, and that is because of the way we got together. If we are going to be together we have to work through this. You can't hold it against me either because we never planned on this going as far or as serious as it has, correct?? I understand you have options...trust i know this & also trust I do, too. These "options" I speak of don't even compare to you...actually I'm not even looking so I don't even have anyone to compare you to...but if I did, you would win. I went through your shit just like you did mine so I can't hate on you...wont be a hater that's for sure. Just remember all these feelings of discouragement, being lonely..blah blah blah...well I'm feeling them too. I also think how happy I am with you. I think about that look in your eyes when you are looking at me...know I feel the same way. I know this is hard because OMG! I am going through the same thing you are, sooo.....enough said? I love you eric. We got something special...def different & I'm holding on...not letting go anytime soon. This can only make us stronger. 14 days betch!

"eric"