well...

I hate that I can't go through with breaking up with you...almost as much as I hate you. I really do; hate that I love you that is...
I just feel at some point something has got to give. At this point I'm ready to give in. I am so over having the same converations every week. Doesn't it drive you crazy? One minute I want to say fuck it because it shouldn't be this hard but in another I dont want to give up so soon. I dont want to be the crazy girlfriend always bitching over dumb shit because thats so not me, but Im def not gonna sit here and keep my mouth shut when your not keeping up your end up. I think I am a pretty awesome girl in general...fuck that I kno I am...I also kno that I am a great girlfriend. you need to wise up before its too late. There is so much more I could say but I just dont see the point. I love you eric....still waiting for you to join me in the real world :D